My Morning Routine

 As I  have restarted my blogs. It won't be vlogs, it is blogs and I will try to make them as exciting as vlogs but blogs are specially for people who like to read. 

So my routine is different than those who go to work but I stay at home. I never leave my house until I have to playbills or buy vegetables, fruits or meat or other grocery items. I ;, sorry I have started talking  unnecessary.

So ,I get up usually late except for the few days when I feel determined to act upon my written time table. At times my mother wakes me up for Fajr and then I have to wake up. But i sleep after praying Fajr.

Then I getup again around 9:30 or 10 am and get fresh. In summers i used to take bath twice a day. But as winters are winters so i avoid taking bath twice a day but once in a day as winters are not yet so cold.

After this I help my mother in breakfast or makes breakfast for myself if bread and eggs are there or my elder sister prepares breakfast. But usually we take it late almost at lunch time.

After that i open my laptop and start exploring YouTube and other sites. recently I have started taking course from Digi skills and watch motivational videos of Sandeep Maheshwari. 

Stop here it's been evening, remember, I get up late. ;)

My Brief Introduction

Hello, I'm Humayoun from Multan. And I have completed Bachelors with Business Administration in HRM.
 I strongly believe age, education, work or any achievement doesn't define you as a person. But just because it was my first introduction so I thought I should be traditional way. 
Name and gender includes in your introduction. The most commonly asked question is who are you so you simply say I'm Humayoun or whatever your name is. So if he is Humayoun he is male or if he is Humaira, she is female. ;) 
These days people don't add their age in their introduction but still others never hesitate to ask if they have missed it consciously or unconsciously. But don't say you are ok with speaking truth about your age, most of us hate this question and I guess what they have to do with it?
So after name and gender, there comes your personality. we are not like our ancestors who had better ideas about the person they are talking to or just met or even saw for the first time. We are busy in our phones and can met superficially.
So it's important to add your personality and nature in your introduction. Don't say it's hard. At least you should know about yourself. And I'm trying to introduce myself in a most natural way. 
So, my introduction includes, ' I'm introvert and born shy. ' You can also add your hobbies but it can be different for situations to situations. Don't mix up things. 
Like my hobbies are cooking, gardening ,book reading and somewhat writing. Unfortunately this digital age has snatched most of our hobbies. like who has time for tickets collection or coin collection or even book reading when we read superficially and meet like ghosts.
But you can also add photography, meeting new people ,painting and much more. 

So, my complete introduction will be as follows;
I'm Humayoun from Multan. And I have completed Bachelors with Business Administration in HRM.
I'm introvert and born shy.  My hobbies are cooking, gardening ,book reading and somewhat writing.
It was pleasant talking to you. :)
Note : Works best for people who are not going after your degrees, achievements or work statistics. 

The person I'm looking for?

 So, I answer this simple question that what I'm looking for in a person? It can be my friend or partner or spouse. But, these are few things which I seek in a person maybe I'm so ideal but this is what it is. 

The first attribute is honesty, the person should be honest. And sincere, the person you are spending your time with must be sincere with you, it's not out of the world attributes, these have been there since our inception but we have changed our course and we must avoid it.

When you have love and sincere for someone you are capable of loving that person, love can't come automatically. it takes time and when you spend some time with the person you start feeling good, really good that it turns into love. I have some reservations about true love but I guess it is for few people who are truly blessed. 

And with love, there comes patience, patience to accept what you don't like about that person, you avoid their bad habits and with love you try to change each others negative habits which might not be negative but may create problems for each other. So, for being good to each other they try to avoid such matters and create a abase for strong relationships. 

If you find honesty, sincerity ,love and patience in someone, they are best for you. 

Who Am I?

Many people ask who are you but no one asks who am I? But it's not a new question, it's here from the start but we never realize who we are. Until this moment, I have realized I must ask myself this question" who am I?

In the recent past I had the opportunity to find myself and that was the time I was very upset and I had no where to go, kind of stuck. But you don't find yourself when you are mediating or try to find out the solution of problems you are facing but in agony and pain you find the solutions you are looking for.

So, that's what happened to me. I had the opportunity to find myself a new perspective, new idea, a new world where I'm feeling better , happy and peaceful.

It's a new world but seems beautiful. But, I can't be certain about this new world as I might found new worlds as I would be progressing.

 

So I was talking about who am I? I don't know much about myself because I never have spent time with myself, time to know myself and time to think what I'm thinking. I have been thinking about what others think of me and this was a problem. 

My head was full of unnecessary thoughts, with fears ,with obstacles I have created for myself. It's not like I have cleared myself now but at least I'm better than before. It's a ray of hope. Negative still attack me and it's difficult to get them out of your mind but I guess I'm strong enough to let them go and it's  the power of affirmations. 

I say good things to myself maybe those things are far from reality but as the time passes those imaginary things turn into your reality. And you feel much much better.

So ,I have written so much but I don't know what I'm writing and nothing about who am I? Maybe I don't know much about myself and I have to explore myself and reserves I'm keeping inside. 

Just a few tips before I conclude this conversation, make yourself a warrior, understand your life, learn new things, choose a path and stick to it and most importantly talk to yourself even for a minute and it helps a lot. Never underestimate yourself.

My Life Story

 

All my life I couldn't express myself and couldn't say what I should have said. Off course it had consequences but now I have understood few things and these are as follows.

•  I will be 100 % honest here from now on because I have no other choice but to let it out.

• By keeping all this inside and not letting it out have made me a sad person.

• I don't think anymore and when you stop thinking, you stop growing as a person.

• I don't know how to share with people around me because I have been worrying about what people will think about me.

• I don't care about them anymore but still I do care about them.

• I'm still dragging my past with my present.

• I think I have never felt the real happiness except the few moments.

• My life is full of guilt, mistakes, blunders , hate and sadness that I can't change life for good.

• People are not happy with me or they don't think I'm good enough as a person and this makes me even more sad.

• I have a lack of confidence and I confess it, sometimes I feel I have become better with age but it's not enough. And it is responsible of all my failures up till now.

• Sometimes I feel that even kids make fun of me.

• I'm currently living a aimless/directionless life  but I couldn't do much about it.

• I was very shy in my childhood and this has made me even worse.

• I feel a constant headache and lack of sleep but can't do much about it.

• I fantasize about kind the life I want to lead but it's not going there.

• I have lack of will which makes things worse for me.

• I'm sorry I can't write long paragraphs to make you think what is my real life.

• I have forgot what is the real happiness.