All my life I couldn't express myself and couldn't say what I should have said. Off course it had consequences but now I have understood few things and these are as follows.
- I will be 100 % honest here from now on because I have no other choice but to let it out.
- By keeping all this inside and not letting it out have made me a sad person.
- I don't think anymore and when you stop thinking, you stop growing as a person.
- I don't know how to share with people around me because I have been worrying about what people will think about me.
- I don't care about them anymore but still I do care about them.
- I'm still dragging my past with my present.
- I think I have never felt the real happiness except the few moments.
- My life is full of guilt, mistakes, blunders , hate and sadness that I can't change life for good.
- People are not happy with me or they don't think I'm good enough as a person and this makes me even more sad.
- I have a lack of confidence and I confess it, sometimes I feel I have become better with age but it's not enough. And it is responsible of all my failures up till now.
- Sometimes I feel that even kids make fun of me.
- I'm currently living a aimless/directionless life but I couldn't do much about it.
- I was very shy in my childhood and this has made me even worse.
- I feel a constant headache and lack of sleep but can't do much about it.
- I fantasize about kind the life I want to lead but it's not going there.
- I have lack of will which makes things worse for me.
- I'm sorry I can't write long paragraphs to make you think what is my real life.
- I have forgot what is the real happiness.
